3 days
Shelter
'07 is days away and i sit here hair ruffled by visuals, from a life thats not even my own. im contemplating on new years eve dinner with the family whose house ive been putting up in for nearly two months now. honestly, their embracing ways in attempt to make me feel at home, have made me feel even more out of place. yet so many times, i feel like ive been unable to reject them, its been two lunches at the dinner table now, and not many more i hope. im no good at this really.
Festivals
the year end festive periods always get me in the same mood. i start remembering the whole thought process of filtering and deciding on what to get for whom for the previous years. and well the recent years have been trying. i woke up to heavy rain a couple of days ago deciding that im done with experiencing this down-ness, and all ready for new experiences.
Hopes
'07 is an important year for me, lots more firsts. ill be choosing an apartment/moving on my own for the 1st time. taking what im doing seriously/putting in effort for the 1st time. for the 1st time ill just be happy instead of trying to be happy (as if its an unattainable state). i would hopefully be graduating and looking forward to a more flexible postgrad schedule that would enable me to actively work with parcel. oh i love it, i just noticed i didnt say work for parcel!
What works vs What doesnt
i think denial can be so enjoyable sometimes. oh, only if it allowed me to be productive id be sucessful by now. there has been a book that ive finally finished reading after two years. two words, 'God sent'. ive finally decided to love myself properly, the previous posts would have hinted that. i wanted to get this amazing read for some of my loved ones but i figured it would be a waste to get it for people who wouldnt appreciate it. ask me bout it :)
'07 is days away and i sit here hair ruffled by visuals, from a life thats not even my own. im contemplating on new years eve dinner with the family whose house ive been putting up in for nearly two months now. honestly, their embracing ways in attempt to make me feel at home, have made me feel even more out of place. yet so many times, i feel like ive been unable to reject them, its been two lunches at the dinner table now, and not many more i hope. im no good at this really.
Festivals
the year end festive periods always get me in the same mood. i start remembering the whole thought process of filtering and deciding on what to get for whom for the previous years. and well the recent years have been trying. i woke up to heavy rain a couple of days ago deciding that im done with experiencing this down-ness, and all ready for new experiences.
Hopes
'07 is an important year for me, lots more firsts. ill be choosing an apartment/moving on my own for the 1st time. taking what im doing seriously/putting in effort for the 1st time. for the 1st time ill just be happy instead of trying to be happy (as if its an unattainable state). i would hopefully be graduating and looking forward to a more flexible postgrad schedule that would enable me to actively work with parcel. oh i love it, i just noticed i didnt say work for parcel!
What works vs What doesnt
i think denial can be so enjoyable sometimes. oh, only if it allowed me to be productive id be sucessful by now. there has been a book that ive finally finished reading after two years. two words, 'God sent'. ive finally decided to love myself properly, the previous posts would have hinted that. i wanted to get this amazing read for some of my loved ones but i figured it would be a waste to get it for people who wouldnt appreciate it. ask me bout it :)
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